I know some of you are anxious to hear how our ultrasound went. First, thank you for all of the well wishes and excitement, I have had so much fun sharing the joy of my pregnancy with you. Now for the bad news. The US determined that our baby has Anencephaly, a brain defect where the top part of the brain doesn’t develop. It is fatal. The baby will not survive. We have a second US Wednesday to verify the findings, but there doesn’t seem to be any doubt that this is the case.
With this, the baby can develop normally until full term, be delivered but will only live for a few hours after being born. Or it’s heart can stop beating at anytime and labor will be induced to deliver the stillborn baby. Lastly, we have the option to terminate the pregnancy within the next few weeks. We our weighing our options, have an appt. with our OB Monday.
Our boys are devastated, as are we. We have received unbelievable support from our family and close friends we have told. They are all helping us work through this unimaginable nightmare. As I type this I can feel the baby move. Hard to believe it is strong and ‘healthy’ but will never come home to the love we have for it.
I will be taking some time off from blogging. I don’t know for how long, maybe a day, maybe a week or more. I have made some very good friends through blogging and I believe I will need you all over the following days, weeks and months. I might post sad, depressing posts, I might post more normal posts like in the past. Who knows how I will feel from day to day. But Annie and Keyona, PLEASE do not stop sending me emails about your pregnancies. I always thought if a miscarriage happened to me I would not want to know about other’s pregnancies or see other’s babies, but that is just not true. It has not made me feel differently about my excitement for you girls and my friends with little babies.
Please send prayers my way, and prayers for my husband and boys. I will be in touch and will let you know when and if anything happens.